I was listening to "Hatak" (Pull) by The Dawn. It's Filipino and I doubt there'll be a translation for it. I'm not the best translator (as Filipino is still my Waterloo; I do better in English...)but I guess I'll give it a shot. The translations may sound weird as these are direct translations, I'll try to explain the idioms/expressions.

Humintay ang sikat ng araw /The dawn waited
Sa pusong madilim / in a dark heart
Upang makita ang sariling, /Just to see itself
Ligaw at dumaraing / lost and wailing

Sa'n ba 'ko huling lumiko? / Where did I last turn?
Di ko na matandaan. / I don't remember.
Marami nang binuhos ang mundo / The world has given a lot*
Isa-isa lang / One at a time
Mahina ang kalaban / The enemy is weak
Mahina ang kalaban / The enemy is weak

May kaunting panahon ka pa / You still have a little more time
Para ako ay sagipin / to save me
Hatak lang ang kailangan ko / All I need is a pull
Ayokong mahulog sa bangin. / I don't want to fall into the abyss

Kung ika'y aking nasaktan / If I've hurt you
Ako sana'y patawarin / I hope you forgive me
Tao lang / Only human
Tao lang kaibigan / I'm only human friend
Ang langit ay hanap parin / Still searching for heaven

Sa'n ba 'ko huling lumiko?
Di ko na matandaan.
Marami nang binuhos ang mundo
Isa-isa lang
Mahina ang kalaban
Mahina ang kalaban

May kaunting panahon ka pa
Para ako ay sagipin
Hatak lang ang kailangan ko
Ayokong mahulog sa bangin.

Tignan mo ako nang may pagmamahal /Look at me with love
Yan lamang aking hiling sa iyo. / That's all I ask of you

Isa-isa lang / One at a time
Isa-isa lang
Isa-isa lang
Ang paghakbang / Step one at a time

May kaunting panahon ka pa
Para ako'y sagipin
Hatak lang ang kailangan ko
Ayokong mahulog sa bangin

Mahulog sa bangin

Mahulog sa bangin

Isa-isa lang

*It basically means that you have a lot on your hands (that the world has probably thrown at you), and you're overwhelmed by it; avoiding bombardment by wanting to take it one at a time.

The song just pretty much sums up what I feel these past years.

And I guess I wonder why I'm hanging on to a cliff. I'm not even sure if it's my own volition. Is it because I trusted too much... That I'm relying on someone else me to pull me up? But then again, on my own, I could be successful. But I choose not to.

I guess I want to trust again. I trust people that much. I entrust my life to them at first meeting. I wanted to fall... I can't stand being on the top... It's lonely. I'm... Happy I guess. Because as I fall, I realize that there are people who willingly leap and hold on to me to keep me from falling further. ... I'll eventually let go... Deep inside I know I would. But I guess I want to believe... That even I am worth saving... That even I deserve to live.

I don't know why I felt lost in the first place. Was it because of the sea of confusion that dragged me in its undertow? Even in the confusion, I am aware of where I was... What I was... What I would be... But now it isn't that clear for me anymore. Is it because I strayed on the path I know? The path that was lain out for me? Nor why I feel the need for someone to look at me... Only me. Not what others have painted me to be. With understanding, but not pity, not sympathy. Accepting eyes that tell me what they really feel. Not a mask, but a window.

But then again, the world gives us more what we seemingly can handle... Is this the way for me to prove my worth? Or is the way to prove others' worth to me? Either way, I hope the dawn will finally shine through this haze... But even if I'll end up falling into the abyss, I hope I'll be able to see them as I fall... Even just one person who tried...