CURSE SCANNERS! CURSE COLLEGE!
Journal Entry: Mon Jun 30, 2008, 7:33 AM
- Mood:
Tired - Listening to: Suzuki violin cds... Need them for lessons...
- Reading: Music sheets... How confusing.
- Watching: Sir Mey Lansangan play in my head.
- Playing: violin for practice.
- Eating: comfort foods... oh so heavenly!
- Drinking: caffeine based drinks(coke, tea,coffee,choco)
I finished the colored fanart weeks ago but the scanner decided to die on me... AGAIN. Oh well... I'm slooooowly progressing with the remade Dreamscapes. I'm finally finished with page 2 (YAY 4 PRoGreSs!). And I'm currently trying to make D.Gray-man fanart that doesn't look to yaoish (The Lord knows how much I read O.o... Hey, it's amusing. Besides, I have no qualms on yuri either. I don't mind some fetishes either, for some reason.).
Curse college, mehn! Screw major subjects! Hell, damn taking courses you don't like at all!! In my case, if I had gone to college back when I was at most my junior year in high school, I would have definitely suited my course and passed with flying colors!
It's just that I'm not the persona who best fits the job description for my current course. And I've given up a lot NOT to be THAT person again as much as possible, although this will eventually kill me anyway. Well, as much as I'd sometimes like to reverse time, time can not stop and rewind for me. At the very least, I'm getting a bit more energy than I've been getting these past days. I bet if I finally go to Japan, I can give that healing theory of mine a shot... But that is most unlikely anyway...
I am seriously considering running away from home to join the military... But I always stop myself from going with the thought of breaking my parents' hearts, especially my dad's. I am after all, his first daughter (and you know how the stereotype goes for the father-daughter relationship). But then again, it's the call I've always been hearing. The call of a convent isn't that far off, but seriously, why would the nuns take me in? Although my prayers will most likely be heard louder if I do enter the convent.
I calculated recently the time span I would have to be comatosed to regain my lost sleep. It turns out that I have to be in a coma for 2 years , 1 month, 15 days, and 15 hours to regain the proper amount of sleeping hours. Considering that sleeploss can shorten one's lifespan, I wonder how much time I still have. Considering that I have ulcer ( started around the same time I stopped sleeping well... which was what? 8 and a half years ago?, major unreleased grudges, hate and frustrations (I try my best to let go... I just can't seem to. The constructive outlets sure as hell don't work. The only way I can get it out of my system is in the military training & protocol.), and some other diseases that i don't know but is showing alarming symptoms every now and then (yeah, I know I should go to the hospital already... I just don't know how I'll be able to do that on my own without my parents knowing...), I'm guesing I don't really have much left...
I rarely study. Right now I'm procastinating the day before a report and with a pile of assignment to be done for the previous weeks... I just can't get serious enough to study. What for? Really...Oh well... I hope I finally get to live without regretting so much the things that I didn't really have that firm a grasp on... That I don't have to blame myself for every sorrow and disappointment in this world that I have always never really been part of...
Devious Comments
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Be wary, for the Cyan Breeze has descended...
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Smile you know you want to
Send this to at least 15 people you love, including me if you care for me!
And if you get at least 10 back, you will recieve good news within 15 minutes!
~Let's see how many hearts you get! =]
All the best. Please continue sending you're own love to those you care for.
dear
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Seeker of the dark & light of the world
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My english skills are not as good as yours.
Therefore, if I say something that seems stupid, please forgive me, okay?
please go visit my page sometime.
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I do appreciate it.
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I am not crazy. I am just.... Oh what the hell. I'm crazy.
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Go read my Keni comics! [link]
I'm not obsessed with Kingdom Hearts... *ok... I really am*
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Hickers Unlimited
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Artgerm IS GOD
iDNAR is t3h man!
Elsevilla is my hero!
oh and Toounit-sama
Arcipello is the master
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Spread the DA love around! (you can copy and paste this message on their userpage!)
RULES:
1- You can hug the person who hugged you!
2- You -MUST- hug 6 other people, at least!
3- You should hug them in public! Paste it on their user page!
4- Random hugs are perfectly okay! (and sweet)
5- You should most definitely get started hugging right away!
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"Life is not peaceful," said Snufkin contentedly.
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Click here!
Mr_SIN
I seriously need a scanner! Feel so abandoned because I have none!
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Click here!
Mr_SIN
I seriously need a scanner! Feel so abandoned because I have none!
I donno if you remember me... and I dont mind if you dont...
anyway... this is my new account ^^
and I'm gonna rewatch you!! if you want or not!!
x3
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>>@all sonic fans: pls take a short look at my site
You know.... Life's a game...
I DONT NEED to get a fuc*** life!!! I'M A GAMER!! I have a lots of lifes!!!!
Thanks so much for adding me to your watch-list! I hope you will continue to enjoy my gallery!
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♥ When You stand, the tall trees and mountains bow
When You speak, the fiercest of oceans is still
And I see the sinner seek devotion
The lost become chosen, and I fall to my knees
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Be wary, for the Cyan Breeze has descended...
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"WIT BEYOND MEASURE IS MAN'S GREATEST TREASURE"
ROWENA RAvENCLAW of Harry Potter
"Perseverance, study well and good sleeping habits"
Tado JImenez..... love him....hahaha
So yeah, sorry but I can not be online 24/7 nor can I reply immediately nor view the most recent journals, polls or deviations since I watch nearly 200 if not more deviants, I have to update my accounts in other sites, and I need more sleep because as I am now, I am greatly amazed that I haven't died yet because of all the pressure and pain my mind and body is going through because of my negligence.
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Be wary, for the Cyan Breeze has descended...
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Be wary, for the Cyan Breeze has descended...
I was disappointed at you.
Here is a link to the desription of such a rising. I checked how much it matches my personality and much of it is true. They even mentioned that people with the same ascendants/risings, but with different planets in different signs react differently.
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If you find it interesting read the articles linked on the right side of the page.
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Reality is only for people without imagination Rzeczywistość jest dla dla ludzi bez wyobraźni.
Huge list of links to Photoshop/CG tutorials
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